WEEK ELEVEN

It's been a rough and tumble week! I had the horror/scifi festival, I was fired than maybe not than for sure, I got bogged down in school work and other things, but all the while I kept working out. I haven't had as much time as before but now with work out of the way I can make the big push for the final 2 weeks.

In some ways these last two weeks are gonna be the toughest of all. Maybe I've gotten bored of doing the same thing everyday for the over 70+ days but I'm looking forward to moving on. I thought by now I'd be easier but I see now that fitness and health is a lifelong struggle, I have to commit myself EVERY day to make the right choices, I have to live by the recovering alcoholics' creedo of "one day at a time". Some days will be easy, some days (like the last few) will be tough and I'll have to push myself extra hard to exercise or to stop eating when I'm full, but either way I have to keep at it. I've already lost over 30 lbs, that's the most I've ever lost before, but I have to stay focused otherwise it'll be for nothing, and I'll gain it all back like I always did and my story will be just another story of failure. I REFUSE TO LET THAT HAPPEN.

After I'm done with this P90 cycle I'm gonna start running and training for the PF Chang's half marathon, which is in the middle of January. That gives me 2 1/2 months to prepare, more than enough. My focus will be on more cardio, to lose weight, but I'll keep up with the weights so I don't lose the muscle mass I've built up (plus more muscle means a higher metabolism). And I'll incorporate more fun stuff like hiking, racquet ball, swimming, whatever just so I don't get bored.

I'll still have my goal of losing 10lbs a month which will put me at 50lbs lost by graduation, another goal of mine. And then after the half-marathon, I'll start another cycle of P90X and hit that hardcore. But as I've said all along my main goal is to get healthy, make better choices and live a healthier lifestyle. I don't wanna be fixated by the scale and by numbers, I really want to transform my life and then the weight will take care of itself.

I'd say 2 weeks to go, but really this is just the begining, I have my whole life to go!